The last few days have been really hard for me. The central nervous system (CNS) will do whatever it needs to heal. For me, my CNS has decided that ramping up all my symptoms is what’s necessary. It is hard for me to manage where I’m at. The symptoms I have dealt with today (they change daily) are dizziness, confusion, …
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Jesus Knows My Suffering
The other day a friend came over and said four words to me “What happened to you?”. The question was humbling and clearly had to do with how undone this trial has made me. It was a hard question for me to receive as I am still wondering the same thing myself. What has happened to me? I can’t explain …
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Grounded by the Word of God
I am tired today. The amount of sleep I get has gone down from 6 hours a night to 4 hours a night so I am not getting much sleep at all now. My body is doing so much to recover so I feel fatigued in a greater way. I sometimes don’t know how I am going to get through …
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The War that Rages Between Feelings and Truth
“Let God be true though every one were a liar, as it is written, “That you may be justified in your words, and prevail when you are judged.” Romans 3:4 I remember the first time I fell in love. I must have been 12 years old. My brother had a best friend named Corey and I really felt love for …
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God’s Glory, My Good
Jesus is precious to me. I love Him with all my being. 17 years ago, He took this terrible sinner and gave me a new heart and eternal hope. He took my ashes and made them beautiful. He took my brokenness and made me whole again. He walked beside me through great storms and helped me overcome tremendous obstacles. And …
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Entrust Your Soul to God
“Therefore let those who suffer according to God’s will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good.” I have come to realize that each trial of suffering requires a new position of surrender and training. Your last trial can equip you somewhat for the future but each new trial brings its own learning curve and discipline that you …
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“How blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the Lord His God.”
I am in a lot of pain today. With my injury, the pain comes in waves. Like all waves, there’s a crest. The crest in my affliction is quite painful but today is day one of the wave beginning, they can last for two weeks. I am already in agony and I am not even close to the crest. It …
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The Faithfulness of God
The Faithfulness of God I am coming up to the fourth-month post-injury. I have still a lot of recovery ahead and still a great deal of uncertainty. But this is what I am learning – while I do not like my circumstances and I struggle every single day, I can honestly say that the Lord has continued to show His …
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Shall we not accept adversity from God?
“So Satan went out from the presence of the Lord, and struck Job with painful boils from the sole of his foot to the crown of his head. And he took for himself a potsherd with which to scrape himself while he sat in the midst of the ashes. Then his wife said to him, “Do you still hold fast …
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Finding Peace in the Present
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” Matthew 6:34 One of the struggles of my injury is that I have a hard time filtering my thoughts right now. Ruminating thoughts try to monopolize my mind and fear can rise up within my spirit quite quickly. …